nixtress's Diaryland Diary

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Venting

My night has been hellacious.
My heart hurts in ways that shouldn't be legal. I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of not being able to make anyone happy, least of all myself. I would like to curl up in the dark somewhere and just stay there.
Not forever but maybe for a really long time. I'm angry and I want to hit something and I'm NOT a violent person. I don't have anymore answers. I know that by the light of day this will all look different, maybe more easily managed. Tonight, though, it looks pretty insurmountable. I hate feeling helpless but that's exactly how I feel. I don't know what else to do.
I hate this. I wish there were a book of answers somewhere.

9:55 p.m. - 2004-10-21

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